As the day gets closer, I get more and more excited, and more and more nervous. I am so incredibly uncomfortable, hot (with each day averaging in the 100*s), and tired, but at the same time I feel so good. People tell me all of the time that I am just "glowing". I can't help it, it's incredible having a new life moving and growing inside of you.
I start my weekly visits next week, and non stress tests. I'm so scared for the first one, because the last time I was connected to a non stress monitor was the same day that we learned our son was gone. I've been so lucky and so blessed that things are going so well this time, and I can only hope and pray that each day continues the same way.
I am so ready (when the time comes) to hold this new little girl in my arms, I'm ready for sleepless nights, and I'm ready for her big sister to be able to hold her and to ask all of the little questions that she deserves to ask. It's crushing to hear her ask if this baby gets to come home with us, and it doesn't seem fair that she should even have the chance to ask these kinds of questions.
Makayla Grace, I can't wait to meet you and to show you each and every day how loved you truly are.
